it's never too late to apologize.

Friday, January 05, 2007

Have been thinking way too much lately.
Sometimes, I even cry myself to bed... -_-!! So it doesn't seems like a good 2007 for me isn't it, boo. =(

Been feeling troubled with lots of issues, rs, friends, future.

RS
Keep having quarrels with him lately makes me feeling rather sick of it already, i dont know why. And previous rs have been flooding into my mind these few weeks, 2 yrs wasn't short, somehow, i think i really miss those days tgt. Thinking back jus bring me nothing but tears. I think i'm going nuts real soon. Did i make a big mistake or i'm jus tired... Did i make the decision that i've regretted.. I've been asking myself these questions over and over again, and full of ??? maybe single wasnt that bad afterall... ya, maybe.....
Ended my msn chat with mic, I know i've hurt him to the max that couldnt be mend. The hurt will still be there, that's what he said to me. I jus teared thru out the convers, i jus cant fight back my tears. "U're the first girl who made me cry" is what he said, i cried even harder.. He's a great guy but i chose to leave him. It's my fault and it'll always be.

For now, My baby's good to me and loves me, I'll do the same too. Am i up to it this time? I will.

(unicode)
旧爱真的是最美吗??

Friends
i'm losing touch with my close friends, Iris, shihui, che... ya... the breakup also seems to draw us apart... lesser and lesser meet up, I know i didn't make the effort to org meet up. Miss those days we laugh and have fun tgt, sigh... really needa catcha more with them~ So tell me, I did not make the wrong decision. Sometimes, it's really hard to find someone to confide in.

Future
what lies ahead of me seems so blur, my dream is to get a job as an air crew, but this dream cannot be realize since bf always not allowed. Well, i'm still not giving up. Jason offered me the job as a purchaser for Blossomz, Salary wise was good, jus hope that he keep to his promise to the terms i've laid. But, this job wont be my permanent job, i need a proper and decent job, which sound more of like office job, and i hate it to core. I prefer interesting job. I need job with good pay, save more money, maybe will take up some courses.

My NY resolution, jus one:
To have a happy me back~

7:53 AM